Second Stage: Peony: 100 songs

100 songs

🎵43rd-No Tittle

April 08, 2022
By kyrayu
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#43

Pekatku pucatkan malam larut

Detik meluruh menyekat sepi

Ku dekap erat kisikan pagi

Terus bertahan usai padam

Hari, bulan, tahun berlalu

Langit tak berpucuk, mimpi lucut dalam genggam

Ku lepas pedih pergi perlahan

Cukupkan pinta ini,Tuhan

Pejamkanlah mata ini

Kan ku pantik asa nanti

Biarlah ku lelap meski sesaat

Damaikanlah ingar hati

Janji esok jumpa lagi

Usah ku kalah mesti ku patah

Pejamkan mata ini, Tuhan

Renggut resah ini, Tuhan

Hapus duka ini, Tuhan

Cukupkan pinta ini, Tuhan

Notes:

It's funny how I tend to struggle to write songs in Bahasa Indonesia. Because it's my own language. And I wrote many poems before, so many I'd lost count of them.

When I start writing my diary in English after I started college, I found out that I could express my feelings better in English. It's still the same now. May be that's why I become so ignorant to think that Bahasa Indonesia is quite limited in terms of vocabulary. And how wrong I was.

It's a beautiful language in itself. It's just my vocabulary which is limited since I rarely read Indonesian literature. Learning English and all, I started to watch, listen, read, English related content. While my own language, I have no words really. What a shame.

I guess I need to start reading Indonesian literature again.

Btw, the song is basically about insomnia and anxiety. Like I could name it Insomniac Song, lol

And Hello there...

100 songs

🎵25th-Dear Me

April 03, 2019
By kyrayu
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I remember the moment I was a little
Such innocent existed in this world
If she just could be the same

The sparkle eyes full excitement
My dream seemed wonderful
If it just would come true

Today I lose a bet again but that’s okay
May be it just would take some time

Dear me,
You know you’ll be alright
Close your eyes for a while
When you’re too tired to try

Dear me,
You will lose many times,
You will feel so many pains
But hey, you will survive

I got to know it’s not always easy
For me to walk in this side road
Mmmm it’s that what I thought

I try to spread my brittle wings
But they couldn’t reach this illusion air
Oh, But I still want to fly

Yesterday, these days, I’m just a weakling
But someday I’ll make it up my fate

Dear me,
I’ll manage it somehow
The moment I release this rust chain
Just wait for it to come true

Dear me,
I believe in those tales
The strength within your eyes
I’ll show this way for you and for me

I will fall, I'll be hurt, I’ll be bleeding, I'll be wounded in the heart
I will hope, I will dream, I’ll pray, I will fight

Sometimes I make mistake
But I’m all ready to face my self...

P.S. My current account on soundcloud suddenly disappeared. I can't even log in from my email at all and couldn't access my profile, let alone access my previous tracks. I've tried contacted the SCsupport but I don't know when it will be fixed. So, I guess I just have to wait a bit, before throwing another thantrum, and again, lol. Btw, this is a song I recorded from 5 years ago and was uploaded using my old account. And I have no more comment.

100 songs

🎵30th-Major Song

March 31, 2019
By kyrayu
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Everywhere I go, I'm so done of my own thought

to find you

And all the spaces filled with your words, your smile, your songs,

they won't do

Standing on my own, felt like you came close,

but you sure didn't

I put everything up front, but you look away

So what did I do wrong?

And I can't believe it

That door was tricking me to slip

When I tried to step in

I found myself next to nothing

Hey, look, it's a major songs without any minor chords

It's all for you

I coudn't find a sadder tone, cause it's been numbing for a while

But I'll soon do

So let me bid my last good bye, wish you won't ever say hi

It'll be good

I'll save everything you said, couldn't be grateful more than this

I wish I could

100 songs

🎵34th-Dear Four-Leaves-Clover

March 31, 2019
By kyrayu
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Dear four-leaves-clovers

I've collected the wonders

Now summon the cruisers

Expell the troopers

At the time they threw bomb, sparks flied, doomed

So I left the window

As the silent cry rose up to clouds

and gone

I've been dead too

with all the truth

You've been calling

So there I am today

By the time they find me

I'm neither dead nor alive

But I assure you it's not an end

I'm not gone

Tomorrow I'll come back

My town rains red

My hands hold thread

But I'll sing you my faith

I've seen her broke apart somewhere else

I've watched the worst movie ever made

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🎵19th-Promise

March 31, 2019
By kyrayu
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Talking in the park, the sun briefly leaves his place

No one’s here, no one but us

You’re on the swing crying under the beautiful dawn

I don’t know what to do, yet I keep staying still

I hope the silence would break through

And just leave you alone

Neither your Dad nor your Mom would go back to your beautiful days

But under this sky where’s the night slowly brings the dark to your sight

You can see the light still makes his pace to the quiet, nice, sweet past

Listen to me, everything’s change, but I won't

I will be there.... on your side...

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🎵18th-On Rainy Days

March 31, 2019
By kyrayu
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It's raining all the days
when it began
under silly thought
and twist of luck

I walked away
and turned for a while
And you were there, smiled
Sadly, I didn't know why
All I know it's a sad story
On rainy days

Praying for the days
our wish comes true
but that's not how it ends
and who's to be blamed?

When it feels the same rainy days
But you are no longer here
Before you were there, stood
Clearly, I didn't get a thing
And now I know it's a sad story
On rainy days

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🎵21st-A Song for The Sky: Langit Tak Pernah Berpaling

February 20, 2019
By kyrayu
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Lyrics

Bertumpu pada hari ini

Terlukiskan kisah hidup semua

Tak ada sesal lagi jika ini memang benar

Kulanjutkan lagu ku

Biarkanlah angin di sore ini

Membawa sepi terbang pergi perlahan

Mencoba mengulur waktu semampu ku

Tak ada gunanya, inilah saatnya

Aku bernyanyi hanya ingin kau tahu

Ku lepas bebas aku bahagia

Aku mencari kepada langit disana

Langit tak pernah berpaling saat ku memandangnya

Aku ingin kau terus melangkah

Menjalani sisa hari-hari

Meski tanpa ku disini

Kau tak akan sendiri

*Ps: So this is my first Indonesian Song, which I recorded 5 years ago while I still played guitar (now you see, my guitar skill is still horrible). I'm going to post some old recording stuff since I find them quite memorable so I won't redo the recording or rewrite the lyrics and just let them be. And this song actually have 2 tittles with 2 different language and 2 different meaning. Why it become like this? I wonder why.

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🎵40th-One Last Song for You

February 17, 2019
By kyrayu
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Lyrics

Many days had slipt away

Countless seconds mean nothing

Shattered love song on bouquet

They were words with missing link

You said you love me like I love you

May be we were meant to be

But even that love had a due

It's gone vile before we knew

Was it about you or was it about me then?

God knows why things turned blue

A dozen of love songs but then again

This is one last song for you

Many talks come to my ears

And they washed away my tears

That you were with her and a daughter

Couldn't wish for you better

People do stay, people do leave

You said I would find my ribs

And you sure were right, it's true that I did

Cause with him I sail my ship

For a goodbye

I wrap my gift in these tunes

For the last time

This is one last song for you

100 songs

🎵5th-Reason

February 17, 2019
By kyrayu
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Lyrics

Give me a reason so I could keep my heart strong

Beneath the ocean I'm easily drown

Take me away to the place where we belong to

Hold me close to you

Pam para pam para pam para pam

Give me a reason so I could just think of you

Unlike the old me I'll tell you the truth

I'm standing here singing like no one you knew

To say "I always need you"

"I always miss you"

"I always love you"

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🎵8th-No Tittle

February 11, 2019
By kyrayu
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Lyrics

The fevered night, turning the sky red

I keep watching from the hill

This abandoned self, yearning for the light

I don’t know what to feel, in this chill

There’s a day when I cast myself in deep sleep

And hope to never wake up again

Cause I’m so scared

To face everything

I’ve been searching for what I mean to be

What I try to hide utmost in this scrawled journey

What I did to get rid of the past I wish I could change

I’ve been walking up insincere life

Those scattered glasses that I could never put in a piece

I did try to hold onto the dreams I wish to come true

There’s a day when I cast myself in deep sleep

And hope to never wake up again

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🎵26th-No Tittle

February 05, 2019
By kyrayu
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Lyrics

I thought of time when I was just supposed to be well

I’d climb up I’d hike the highest mountain

Oooh its over now

Oooh it’s gonna end

I countdown your heartbeats as the sand flows

An hourglass you keep close never runs out

Oooh grab my hands now

Oooh you may stop now

But That’s not happening right now

I close my eyes I stop dreaming

Oooh its over now

Oooh it’s gonna end

100 songs

🎵31st-Wheel

February 05, 2019
By kyrayu
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Lyrics

Two years, time passed

Somebody told me once to breath in, when I was drowning

I can’t believe it, the dim days were laughing

People lied, being right

How to make sure things going well when I’m scared

I’m afraid to walk my own route

I wish I had known

The right wheel to ride on

But I won’t find

Where I belong

Time knows where you’re from

The layer you’ve put on

Just let it go

You could be strong

Take your ride

Then move forward

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🎵25th-Dear Me

🎵30th-Major Song

🎵34th-Dear Four-Leaves-Clover

🎵19th-Promise

🎵18th-On Rainy Days

🎵21st-A Song for The Sky: Langit Tak Pernah Berpaling

🎵40th-One Last Song for You

🎵5th-Reason

🎵8th-No Tittle

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