Second Stage: Peony: January 2019

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Tentang "Names"

January 31, 2019
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Macrame Owl Wall-Hanging (With Youtube Tutorial)

January 31, 2019
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13th Note-5 YA Novels About Mental Health Issues

January 30, 2019
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So since I'm in rather tight schedule and my works just somewhat accumulated, and I'm really stressed out about this Saturday; meeting people and a lot of people in real life, discussing something in real life, and don't even ask how I feel right now. I am so anxious that I kinda thought of all the possibilities I could do so I don't have to go. Though I guess I have to in the end. And I feel like crying already.

Ok, I'll stop whining for now.

This time I want to share you some of YA Novels I've read, where the topic mainly based on mental health issues (or at least the characters dealt with mental health illness). And I would just share my opinions though it's not that important. And here we go.

Speak by Laurie Halsen Anderson

I gotta admit that this is one of my favorite YA novel which I would recommend to everyone. Setting in 1990s (assumedly), Melinda Sordino, a freshman of Merryweather High, started her high school year in a rather wicked situation. She was an outcast since she busted a party by calling a cop (which made a lot of people got arrested) and became friendless because she told no souls about what actually happened to her at that time. She found that there's no merit in speaking, or rather she felt scared and reluctant to talk since there's nobody would talk to her anyway. And she decided to become a ghost altogether. It was when her art teacher started to pull her in, and she started her year-art-project about a tree that she began her first step of healing process.

It's believed Melinda had PTSD (Post-traumatics Stress Disorder). She felt traumatized after what actually happened to her, and that damn 'nightmare' was actually in the same school as her. She was scared, depressed, and hopeless that she changed 180 degrees from the bright-cheerful-athletic-girl to just a muted-ghost-girl. But no, she's not just a muted-ghost-girl, I gotta admit that her satirical comments could really knock me out.

This novel would show you how a victim of sexual abused would continue their already shattered life and how she perceived herself. The trauma was so real that it would hunt her everywhere and anytime. The nightmare was endless and It was something that she would shoulder for the rest of her life. But despite anything, this girl faced them head on.

So I really recommend this novel to you. Melinda is, though rather gloomy character, a very interesting character and I can't help but to love her character. She even fought for her right for not speaking, while people fought for the opposite right. There's thing that she had given up but there's also things she would pull herself to fight. And in the end, she did speak up.

It's Kind of a Funny Story by Net Vizzini

Actually I have been in the quite similar situations as Craig (a little bit different but quite) so I could relate to him at some points. I even used some of his phrases in my about me section. Really, you see, expectations could kill somebody.

Craig Gilner was a rather ambisius guy who dreamed big but got himself crumbled down upon discovering that there were a lot of people who were way better than him. Getting himself in a prestige high school, Manhattan's Executive Pre-Professional High School, didn't help him either that he started to had eating disorder, since the pressured were a lot heavier than he could handle. Having a close buddy who was really good at almost everything and the fact that his close buddy dating a girl he had a crush on also quite a huge blow for Craig. And there's also this huge expectation from his parents that he would go to a prestige college, and in the other side there's also his smartass little sister, who's somewhat smarter than him. So in other words, he was depressed and having this suicide thoughts, but once he was just about to kill himself, he called for help and got himself admitted to mental hospital. And there he met a lot of people with different mental health issues and finally learnt a lot from them and discovered his other talent and found what he actually really wanted to do. In the end he was able to face his own problems with the helps of a lot of people and got himself to actually live.

So overall, this novel was quite humorous and quite a light reading considering the fact it had this dark theme. So if you want to learn something about mental health problem but not in a grim setting, I would recommend you to read this novel.

13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher

I don't know how to express how I've felt after reading this novel. Sure I could sympathize with Hanna Barker, but I don't know. The book itself does do this open up eyes for us to watch out for everything we said and everything we did. We did not know how our words and action could actually hurt people. If you can't say something good, then shut your mouth. If you can't act kind, then don't go around hurting people.

So 13 reasons why is a novel about how Clay Janson discovered 13 reasons on why Hanna Barker (his crush) committed suicide. Hanna Barker leaving this recordings telling why she committed suicide and send them to the people on her 13 reasons list who she claimed caused her to end her life. So like I said I don't know what to feel about this book, and I honestly am not a fan of this book, but I have to post it in the list since I want say: SUICIDE IS NOT THE FREAKING ANSWER. Yup I don't know the question, but at least try to get some helps. Well she did, and her teacher just brushed her off. I just don't like how this novel could trigger a lot of people to commit suicide. And I hate the fact how this book actually made me become such a jerk who would compare Hannah to other characters. If you're depressed I don't suggest you to read this book at all. But if you are not, feel free to check this book out.

The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky

Ok, this guy here is practically my soulmate. Not in a romantic way, but he is my soulmate (I have to say it twice).

Charlie just began her freshman years and counted down the days he had to graduate. He was in series of emotional struggle especially after his only best friend just committed suicide without leaving any reasons or clues why he did it. And his high school first year start was as bad as he expected. Things started to change when he brought himself to greet a senior, Patrick, who happened to be in the same workshop class as him, while watching a football game with her step sister, Sam. Patrick and Sam invited Charlie to join hanging out with them and since then Charlie worlds began to expand and things started to get better for him.

Charlie is a wallflower, he sees things, he keeps quiet about them, and he understands (as mentioned by Patrick on the novel). I love this three characters so much, Charlie, Patrick, and Sam. They have such a beautiful soul. They've been in troubles and somewhat still able to sympathize with others without trying to pretend to be someone else. They were like these honest and ingenious characters that you could not help but to love them. And the way Stephen Chbosky write this story is also interesting since every things was based on Charlie's POV, and it's not only about friendship, relationship, or family, the story was deeper than that. I don't know if anyone could be able to hate this story. It has this warm feeling and the next second you'd find yourself in a rather grim situation. I don't want to spoil the story. There was darker secret beyond Charlie's unstabe emotional state. So I highly recommend this novel.

All The Bright Places by Jenniver Niven

Before I start my own review I just want to say. I am in love with Theodore Finch, so I guess I'm gonna be a little bit biased about a lot of things.

All The Bright Places told a story about Thodore Finch and Violet Markey, a boy who's known as a freak and interested in death and a girl who's devastated and in deep grievance over her sister recent death. This is a story about a girl who learns to live from a boy who wants to die.They both met on the ledge of the bell tower at their school. Theo was there wondering whether it was a nice day to end his life while Violet was there, was actually in the act of committing suicide before she got caught by Theo. Violet's action saved Theo from deciding to end his life, while Theo saved Violet from the jumping. Theo who was interested in Violet, persistently urged Violet to join him in the same project to discover wonders in their state. Since then their world started to change. Unfortunately while Violet's started to heal by Theo's company, Theo was getting farther and farther, out of everyone reach. And nobody could save him in the end. Not his parents, siblings, friends, even his girlfriend.

The thing about Theo is he had these series of episode he mentioned as awake, long drop, and asleep which pointed to Bipolar Disorder. He's known for his impulsive-ticking-bomb-action like fighting, and also known for his streak over changing his style from 80's finch to badass finch. While he tried his best to stop himself from thinking about dead to the point of doing some running by himself to the near town, seems like nothing could stop him from doing so.

So if I have to choose which book is the best for me, I'm still going with All the Bright Places. It's just that I felt so lost after discovering the ending that I kinda wished that I was dreaming when I read the final story. It was just that devastating. Because I understand why Theo did what he did. Because it's not that hard to comprehend what's going on inside his mind. Theo ran when he felt too much, I walked a long walk by myself when I felt too much. Everything he did to stop himself from feeling, I got it so much that it's hurt. That's why I always have this special spot for Theo in my heart.

And that's all for my 13th note. I believe I would change the content here and there, and if I offend you with my review, I'm sorry for that.

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Tentang "Mengapa"

January 30, 2019
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Tentang "Silent Confession"

January 30, 2019
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Ukulele Cover: BLACKPINK--As If It's Your Last

January 27, 2019
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🎵38th-No Tittle (unrequited)

January 27, 2019
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12th Note-YUI and Yui (Flower Flower)

January 25, 2019
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Image Source: Google Image

It was 15 years ago, a 16 years old girl sat on the floor by crossing her leg, played a guitar and sang her 3 original songs instead of two, in an audition hosted by Sony Music Japan. Her performance won the awe of the judges and captured the hearts of everyone present, which finally gotten her the highest score and started her first debut with "It's Happy Line" soon after that.

She's known as YUI, was a soloist in the beginning of her career and a very successful one at that, before she decided to form a band instead and started her career from the scratch. She's now Yui, though people claimed she changed and all, I believe the change was for the better.

Now she's a mother of a twin (I don't want to gossip about her private life), still pursuing her music career in a band called Flower Flower, and though she has changed her music genre and not many people are into this genre, I still find her and her band still rocks. Here's one of my favorite song from the band.

So, what I'm gonna write again? lol. Got another block. Today I take a day off since I've got cold and all due to the lack of sleeps. And no, I'm not in love or anything. Those 4 little brats (kittens) just keep coming back to me while I was a asleep. It has been for weeks already I have to say so good bye to my peaceful night rest.

Okay, that's enough for grumbling. So let me tell you how I encounter Yui's works.

Have you experienced the feeling of the light breeze blowing while you listening to a song? That's what I felt when I first listened to LIFE, an ending theme of Bleach anime. It was eleven years ago, long before I get in touch with internet. I didn't knew the title of this song, and all could remember were the short part of the chorus which I hummed continuously so I wouldn't forget that light breeze blowing feeling. The next week I kept waiting in front of tv just to listen to this ending theme. Well I also did watch the anime since it's one of my favorite, though I couldn't brace myself to read/watch the ending since I was a die-hard-shipper of IchigoxRukia and couldn't accept the fact that they didn't end up together (It was even worse than Naruto's ending)

Years passed and all I could remember was still the chorus part, the light breeze blowing part. It was two years later I found this song covered by a female who's in a couple-matching, love-finding, blind-dating show (Yup, I did watch something like this in the past). It was strange at first and she's not that good at singing (like I'm one to talk), until I got that light breeze blowing feeling. I found the singer's name and the song's tittle in the bottom of the screen. YUI-LIFE.

That's not the end, and internet was such luxurious stuff for me back then. It was in 2010 I got to know this world. I started collecting YUI's songs and decided to continue learning guitar when I was a freshman. Looking at my friend who made a band and sang in a competition at our college back then also gave me a great punch. I really hoped they would invite me, but I realized my skill was just at the very bottom of the scale. So I started practicing some of YUI's and Taylor Swift's songs (my cousin introduced me to Taylor's early songs which I love so much, and she plays guitar as well, which quality I admired of a female singer at that time). And then I realized, I was only able to play their songs. So I started to play whatever songs I like.

And here I thought I was just going to talk about Yui, but I ended talking about myself. Sometimes I wonder whether I am actually a melancholic-phlegmatic or just simply a sanguine.

YUI's songs inspired me a lot. Like the chorus part of LIFE, "I can change my life", a simple sentence, could be said easily but hard to be done... It echoed in my heart as young and foolish I was back then, so I braved my heart to join the acoustic competition which all I ruined (I've talked about this before so let's just end it already).

I'd talk and promote YUI everywhere, on social media (Facebook mostly), family gathering, even to my friends, to the point I would shamelessly called her Onee-sama (God, I gave up on the old me). I bet they were kinda getting tired of my endless talk of YUI. My cousins though, as we always supports each other idols, gave me a lot of news involved YUI, such as her movie "Taiyou no Uta" (Which I didn't know it actually existed before my cousin told me, and the movie was so sad that I was bawling my eyes out) and introduced me to one of my favorite YUI's song "Tomorrow's way". By the way, she looks so gorgeous in the clip video.

It was around 2012 when the news of YUI's retirement as a soloist just shocked the world especially her fans (YUI Lover). But honestly at that time I was not even aware of the news even until her tribute album released. It was when she finally announced that she's going with a band that I'd finally opened my eyes. And I was utterly beyond speechless.

She cut her hair short, dyed it blonde, and wore a prince like outfit, standing on a stage with her new band. I don't know that whether she did all the changes in order to get rid of her YUI's image or just simply to make a change of pace. I didn't know that she's undergoing a lot of troubles dealing with her mental health illness. Because she was at the peak of her career as a soloist singer and saying she was famous in Japan at that time was just quite an understatement. Just what kind of things happened to her to make her abandon her already successful career and start everything from the scratch?

But I kinda got (or so I thought) where she came from. After all, her image was something created by the company she was under. And you could see how her image changed drastically in her 'Hello' mv. I won't say the song was bad, it's just ... I won't judge. I don't want to force my 'ideal image' on her. It was rude of me. She deserved more than that. And I always respect her choice to make a band of her dream and make her own songs, the type of song which she likes, without dictated by anyone.

So over all Yoshioka Yui has inspired me a lot, whether in playing guitar, writing my own songs, or having more faith in myself. I was used to envy her so much, since she could make such a serious decision to even quit her school and focus on music. A decision which only some rare people are able to take. Yui is still like an Onee-sama I always look up to. She's a fighter who works really hard to make her dreams come true. She's faced her own hell and walked through it. As a fan I couldn't be more proud of her. She may be not the greatest singer ever, but she's the best singer-songwriters for me. And her songs are great; great lyric, great melody, and great composition. And as the end of this 12th note, kindly let me show you one of her greatest hit "Goodbye Days", a theme song for 'Taiyou no Uta' movie.

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Macrame Fish (With Picture Tutorial)

January 24, 2019
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11th Note-Story of Rainy Days

January 23, 2019
By kyrayu
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I'm kinda obsessive with red umbrella, just don't mind me. Image Source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lWFMXXEhqsw

I have this love and hate relationship with rainy days. Love, I just love how the rain could gather people in a room, sharing story or just having small conversation. I also love when the petrichor hit my sense of smell, calmed my nerves and sent me to sleep. I love how it could wash away all my feelings clean and left me with nothing. I just loved and hated how the rains could easily portrayed my feelings and my gloomy heart. I hated how depressed I've become and felt under the weather after such a long rainy days. I hated how it covered the deep blue sky underneath, the deep blue sky which I loved so much. I loved how it made the blue sky appeared even in more deeper blue after such a long rainy days. I loved and hated it because it always reminds me of him.

Well, that escalated quickly. I don't think I've ever shared any romantic moments on rainy days.

So rainy days huh. A lot of people have their best and worst moment on rainy days. I can't even decide whether I love it or hate it. Though I believe that I was used to love rainy days.Those days when we just hanged out outside playing by the football field near the neighborhood, or just had shower while running wild, didn't even mind the shiver we'd felt afterward when things just got too cold. I loved how we were all laughing like we were the happiest creatures in the world, didn't even mind the scolding and beating we would get after that. We were just simple kids, who had no significant things to fear, beside our mother's outrage. Really wish that I could go back to those moments.

That's also one moment I could never forget when It's raining outside. I believe I was an elementary grader back then. I was bedridden a lot when I was a kid. And there was once I got shingles all over my feet. It was so painful to the point I couldn't even stand, let alone walk. I don't remember how, but things just got better afterward. It was just, getting shingles on rainy days was just the worst kind of luck one could have. And I happened to suffer that illness on rainy days.

I remember how my mother told me to never went home while it was still raining, so I had to wait until the rain stopped pouring, or just wait for my father to pick me up. I don't remember how long I had to wait there. Some of my friends already went home drenched (it was a bless for us kids, going home while it's raining), some of them were already picked up by their parents. I remember how one by one my friends were no longer there anymore. They did ask me to go home together, some of my friends even invited me to share their umbrella (or did they?) which I declined because I didn't want to worsen my shingles and claimed my mother wrath. I kept waiting there for quite a long time until I was the only one left behind. I kept waiting there believing my father would come.

My father did come in the end, you know. He's a great father after all. You don't know how happy and relieved I was when I finally saw my father at the very end of the road wearing yellow raincoat and green boots while holding an umbrella. I don't quite remember how I got home after that though. But since then I got this weird complex feeling about waiting while its raining. It's just that it was so lonely waiting there by myself and I hated how the rain made me think of the worst case scenario. That's why even until now I hate to wait for something or someone when it's raining. I even hate to wait for Angkot while it's pouring hard. I always go to work when the rain just become light. I would even prefer to get drenched instead rather than waiting for the rain to stop.

There was also one moment when we didn't have umbrella. Most of the time I guess we really didn't have one. Because there was also one time when my brother and I had to go to school wearing sandals and our normal clothes, also put on some plastic bag to cover our head; while we put our shoes, school uniform, and our school bag inside a big plastic bag. And we just went to school like that under the pouring rain (thanks God it's not the heavy one) and got slightly drenched here and there. At first I hated it so much, the fact that I had to go to school wearing my ugly sandals and that stupid plastic bag on my head which was actually kind of foolish of me. But my brother just acted cool and all while I was sulking, which finally got on my mother's nerve. I was scolded and ended up crying the whole way to school while cursing the rain. I was a silly silly kid. And when we got to school, not many kids were even present yet.

There was some story of rainy days when I was a kid. I had plenty of that but may be I'll update em later on.

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Macrame Canna***, No, Maple Leaf (With Youtube Tutorial)

January 21, 2019
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Macrame Bracelet

January 20, 2019
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10th Note-Mental Health

January 20, 2019
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Source: Anxiety & I

Whether you like it or not, let's talk about mental health issue. This is funny because mental health problems are issues everyone happened to experience on daily basis but become a 'forbidden' subject to talk, especially where I'm from. It's like whenever someone's brought this issue everyone just went silent and they briskly change the topic. I don't know why this kind of talk became such a taboo or why people just avoid it all together. May be it's like: 'All living creatures have problems, you have yours, I have mine, so let's just not share them and keep them to ourselves'. Or may be like: 'Everyone have faced the things you have faced, and they walk through it. So chin up, don't whine, pull yourself together, and deal with it'. And when somebody committed suicide they bash him/her to no end.

Because they have no idea what kind of hell those people who'd committed suicide had to face on. They don't know yet they act as if they knew it all. They didn't even want to listen to someone else's problem, and when somebody finally lost it and did it, they averted their eyes and said the most hurtful things.

"A lot of people have their heart broken, it was stupid to commit suicide"

"Only idiot will commit suicide for something like that"

"That's because she has a little faith, she is a sinner"

"Those who committed suicide deserved to die"

Do these people even have a freaking damn heart? It's funny how these people just assumed someone would be able to commit suicide just because of a single event. Because suicide is the final form of the accumulation of all the negative feelings someone have to endure during their life. There's no way because of a rejection someone would commit suicide. No, the rejection was not the reason but the trigger. Those who had committed suicide had been sad for ages. Their sadness was too overwhelming, that once one disastrous event happened, they lost all their reasons and ended their life. They didn't deserve to be shunned. They should be pitied instead.

It's just ironic how people who had endured their hardships and walked through their own hell were unable to empathize with others who faced the same things. Because in the end we have different mental state builds. A trivial problem for you could be a huge problem for someone else, and please don't compare your hardships to someone else's. Don't judge. You don't even have the answers for their troubles.

I do not support the act of suicide, let alone promote it. I also don't want people to romanticize it and make it as something common. Because suicide is no way in hell the way out of everything. It has never been the answer for your trouble no matter how hard it is. You might stop your nightmare, but you'll become the worst nightmare ever for those you've left behind for the rest of their life. No matter how low you think of yourself, your existence whether you realize it or not, had effected your surroundings. Whether you want it or not, your presence meant something to someone. And believe me, there's always an answer in the end, it may be coming a bit late, but it's always been there, so please hang on.

Now I just want to share a test for mental health assessment presented by Psychology Today. It will help you to identify your mental health disorders by clicking the screening tools surveying your symptoms and show you how to deal with them. But please remember, this test is only the first stage to identify your mental health problems and it doesn't cover all of mental health problems. For further examination, especially when it's too hard for you to function daily, you might as well contact a specialist. If you're afraid to talk to a specialist, I'll share you some group online support which could help you to assist your issues.

Here's the link for Mental Health Assessment

There were 5 totals of mental health disorders in this test; Substance Used Disorder (where your disorder caused by the use of substance), Bipolar Disorder (involved a series of manic episodes and depressions), Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (caused by traumatic events), Generalized Anxiety Disorder (constantly feeling anxious), and Panic Disorder (panic attack).

If you want to find out more about mental health disorder, you might visit: Internet Mental Health. There, you'll find out a lot of types of mental health disorder, their symptoms, free diagnosis, descriptions, treatment info, and self-help.

Forgot one more thing, some of you might dislike what I'm about to say, but praying does help me coping with my mental health issues. It sounds cliche. But when I surrendered all my troubles and myself to God, I found peace. I know that my mental health disorders are still there (there's no way they would just disappear, right?) and they might drag me down again. I might feel depressed again, might feel lose control, cold, numb, empty, panic, and feel all the negativity in this world, but I know that God will help me to walk through it. I know that there are people who genuinely care for me. I know that I am still blessed to be able to live though sometimes I do wish to die. I know that. That's why I hope you, no matter how hard your life is, you'll keep holding on, have faith in yourself, your family, your friends, and your God. Please live on till the end.

Image Source: In loving memory of my son Jason Scott Hearn 11/01/1986 - 15/10/2012

*Indonesian Suicide Prevention Community: Into The Light Indonesia

*Anxiety and I (Facebook Page) I recommend this since a lot of people share their story here

*Griefs Speakout (Facebook Page)

*Mental Health on The Might

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Macrame Flower Ring (With Youtube Tutorial)

January 18, 2019
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9th Note-A Cup of Tea (Random Talk Part I)

January 17, 2019
By kyrayu
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Intermezzo (Image Source: https://www.mindful.org/mindful-cup-tea)

I've just fulfilled the quota for my daily posting; 16 days and 16 posts. So from now on I don't have to post 2 or 3 posts and just have to post 1 post a day.

It was a little achievement may be. But for someone like me who could barely stick to a plan, it was such a huge improvement. It has been 16 days. So far, writing things like this have been fun and it is something that I look forward to lately. I wonder if I could keep up to the end though.

I don't have any expectation from this blog. Blogging was something I decided on a whim but taken seriously later on. I've been shutting myself away from people for quite some time. I was the type who would just post anything every single minutes, but then I realized that those things didn't matter anymore, like anyone cares anyway. In the end I became too feed up and just stopped.

Then I shut my social media account I used daily one by one, from facebook, instagram, and twitter. I was depressed for sure at that time. I tent to get so negative that it showed on my writings. So before things got awkward, I retreated from social circle. At least it was better than cutting or dyeing my hair like I did on the past.

Now, I've only used Istagram to post my ukulele cover and an instant messenger app like Whatsapp. I haven't contacted anyone so it's no big deal that no one contacted me either. Or so I thougth. Such cold-hearted fellows they were.

Like I'm one to talk.

Friendship just becomes cold as we get older. It was almost inevitable. Not that because we want to, it just happens to be like that. I believe that if you really truly want to meet someone, you'll go to him/her no matter what kind of obstacles you have to face on. If it's not, then your friends are just not that important to you, or you thought that your existence were not that important to them. You do know the feelings that whether you are there or not it doesn't change anything, right? If you feel that way then you are not being considerate like you thought you were, you are just only being considerate to your own feelings.

But I understand those feelings better. I was there, and am still there. I won't blame my anxiety like I used to. I know how it feels to think that you are worthless. I know so well how it feels to feel the uncertainty of someone might dislike you so you push yourself to please them. I know it so well that I decide to stop and do whatever the hell I want to do. I know it so well that it...

God, it becomes like this again. Dear me, get a hold of yourself, kay.

So the reason I decided to do blogging again is because I have no other places to express my 'uneg-uneg' and share the things that I like (I'll try to be as positive as I can be). And I don't expect people to check my blog at all, but if they do I'd be grateful. I know that not many people are into reading (especially reading this kind of absurd thing), so if you are one of my friend or someone I know and you are currently reading this, I want to say thank you very much. Your efforts of wanting to get to know me (it's not a crime to dream, right?) are noted. And you are forever my favorite people.

I also want to notice you about some of my projects like Ukulele Cover and 100 Songs. I'd probably update them on weekends since it is impossible for me to record them on work-days. As for Macrame Tutorials I'll try to post once a while since I'm gonna run out of idea if I post them on daily basis. I also want to start a new project; Poems, but that will happen after I do something with my earlier projects. I don't want to get lost on my own track.

And I guess this is the end of my 9th note. Thank you so much for reading my another nonsense. And I'm always in your care.

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Tentang "Names"

Macrame Owl Wall-Hanging (With Youtube Tutorial)

13th Note-5 YA Novels About Mental Health Issues

Tentang "Mengapa"

Tentang "Silent Confession"

Ukulele Cover: BLACKPINK--As If It's Your Last

🎵38th-No Tittle (unrequited)

12th Note-YUI and Yui (Flower Flower)

Macrame Fish (With Picture Tutorial)

11th Note-Story of Rainy Days

Macrame Canna***, No, Maple Leaf (With Youtube Tutorial)

Macrame Bracelet

10th Note-Mental Health

Macrame Flower Ring (With Youtube Tutorial)

9th Note-A Cup of Tea (Random Talk Part I)

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